Bus

It might be the message from God or somehow. These days I have received some mails which make me wonder there is someone looking after me. Many thanks, guys.

Many people take bus to wherever they want to go. If there is few seats left, it would be great to sit down and enjoy the drive. If it is not, squeeze into limite space and the only thing can do would be talking to someone or listening to the others' conversation. Day after day, it's quite a boring day. A conversation catch my attention. It's from a couple love birds. The boy is using himself to creat a space to keep the girl comfortable from crowd. The girl has a bad day and the boy tries to make the girl smile, he tries very hard. The boy asks the girl where to go for dinner.

The girl looks unfriendly and replies: "Can't you make up your own mind? It's just another dinner. Why can't you make a decision?"

The boy defends in weak voice: "I'd like to have dinner with you, with your favourite food, in the restaurant you like, and then, see your happy smile." "I am incompetent to help you at work, but this is the only thing I can do for you, let you talk, let it out of your chest."

"I am sorry," the girl apologizes for early on. And then get off the bus together, sweet and love is back in the air!

Somehow, I am incapable to translate this kind of conversation from Chinese into English, but I believe a lot of ppl had this kind of conversation with their love one, in words or in action. These days, I have a lot of thoughts. I am grieved about Miao-Hua's leaving and angry the way she said good-bye. I am lucky to have DC with me while walking out of this shock. So far, I am not brave enought to watch the CD she prepared for me. My mom's way to help me out of this is kind of strange - grocery shopping in traditional market. I told her about this the other day and she walked away from me. Next day, she came back and took me down to do grocery shopping. She lets me see the other side of Miao-Hua. Until her last breath, she was fighting to see her love ones longer. Until she got this cancer, she was trying to make a baby with her lover. Until she left, she said good-bye via VCD to make us remember her while she was in much better condition. Until her last day, her love never leave her alone. How easy to ignore our love one who is next to us? How easy to show our emotion right in front of him/her? How easy to let go of our anger with our love ones? I take Miao-Hua as a lesson I have learn form her - to enjoy quality time with DC, with my families, with all of you. Look at the bright side!!!